Hye..
Still in mood swing.. Don’t know why it happened and how long this gonna last. As meds student with some references, me self diagnosed. Mood swings, change in behaviours, not much communication, idealisation of killing or suicide, lost in appetite which consequences to loss of body weight. With all those symptoms and signs, it shows that me having DEPRESSION. It’s easy to say and look into the solutions of this mental state, but it’s millions times to the patient.
My head-no-brain friends said to me, if I have any probs, just share to them. But, will it help? I mean, it’s a disaster sharing probs to innocent-like gossipers and head-no-brain people coz someday, they will spoil your darkest secret. They’re such Veritaserum in Harry Potter. They ‘ask’ for any probs but ending telling the stories to others.
Some of them had made me scatters into pieces. They broke me into pieces, make that such nothing take place and giving a such fake-caring talk, to get up and go live the life. Screw them! I will never ever till end of the life have trust to these kind unreliable big fat liar. They made life of others upside down and they expect them to be ok?! May they be damned that hell itself spit them out!
Trust is long, hard to gain, but easily to lost.
